All Eyes on Me!

All eyes on me

Do you know whose eyes are on you? I was talking to my daughter when all of a sudden she rubbed my face and said “mommy I want to be just like you”. As I processed her statement and maintained my composure by fighting back my tears, my response was “that’s so sweet; however, you have to be the best you that you can be. You are an individual and very special – I love you!”

Although I try my best to set a good example for both my children, sometimes I slip up – I am not perfect. I try to show respect, love, confidence, humility, honesty, responsibility, resilience, among others things. I used to keep alcohol in my house, but then I realized that I didn’t want them to see me drinking and thought why have it. So out it went. I don’t smoke or use drugs, so no concerns there. Well there is always concerns because there are outside influences like peer pressure. I pray for my children constantly and try to maintain an open line of communication. I know that I have taught them right and wrong, and so forth and so on. Like everyone else in the world I have my good days and bad days. When I am not in the best of moods, my children know (no matter if I say everything is good). There are days I fuss and yell, but those moments are few and far between because I love to laugh with my family. Like I said, I am not perfect.

My son and daughter mean so much to me, and I want the best for them – like every other parent in the world (well most parents – that’s another story). Being a parent is one of the most important jobs a person can have. Sometimes children feel their parents are like super heroes and do no wrong in their eyes. That’s that purest form of love, the love between a parent and child. I remember when my mother was battling an addiction it broke my heart to see her go through the struggle. She was such a strong person with a fun and lively personality – everyone loved her. I remember seeing her in tears some days and I remember her full of life and love on the majority of days. One of my fondest memories is of her holding me in her arms and we danced as she sang the song Home from the Wiz when I was about 13 (still brings tears to my eyes to this day). NOTE: I felt so much love from her in the one moment, and I wish she was still with me today. When she was in recovery, one of her recipes got published in a cookbook. She wrote in that book that the main reason for making the change of her life was because she felt that she was losing the respect of her children. Little did she know that I would never lose respect for her because I loved her unconditionally! I love my mom so much and I see/feel the love that my children have for me – wow that feeling is amazing.

I always knew that my daughter looked up to me, but to hear the words come out of her mouth was so humbling. Do you know whose watching you and wanting to follow in your footsteps? Do you know how your actions may impact others around you? Growing up and I would see older dudes that were doing illegal things convince, influence, or allow the younger boys to partake in the same activities. I truly did not understand this mentality. If you are in a certain situation or place in your life, wouldn’t you want for the younger generation to do better for themselves? Think about your actions first because I am sure there are little eyes on you.  I see there are all eyes on me.

Best Wishes!

Tashia